Today is my last board meeting as the executive director of the Keokuk Art Board. We’re meeting a little earlier than usual because it’s my husband’s birthday, a really big one. I just took him out to lunch. He likes fried chicken, mashed potatoes and gravy, and corn. Although I do not mind making a meal like this one, it sure is nice to have someone else prepare the food. He got a piece of cheesecake, too, when I told the waitress it was his birthday. This will be our only celebration today.

Soon I will be back to work, planning the board meeting agenda. By 3:00 I will be making copies of last month’s meeting, the treasurer’s report and the agenda I’ve yet to write. I imagine I will complete that by 2:45. It’s a dull moment of time, fulfilling my necessary duties. Aren’t our lives full of these moments? Just get ‘er done kind of tasks that once completed, we move past and easily forget.

This final board meeting will be as uneventful as my husband’s birthday celebration. Time at this age is all relative. Sometimes there’s a lot to do, sometimes there’s little to do, knowing that soon there will be another distraction that captures our attention. I’m generally anticipating the next bomb to drop. Worrying is a genetic gene I cannot shed. One thing for certain is life goes on; things change whether we want them to or not. Endings close one door and opens another. I always get a little depressed when I know a final moment is approaching which inspired my poem today, a nonet.

Goodbye, Love

a blue light flickers, baptizing our
bittersweet goodbye, my swift tears
tenderly bless your beloved
face, I treasure each sweet
memory we’ve weaved
knowing our souls
will seek each
other
soon

Barb Edler Avatar

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10 responses to “The Last Meeting”

  1. Leah Thomas Avatar
    Leah Thomas

    It’s lovely how you chose to sit in that “depressed” feeling and channel that energy into a poem. I’m sure you feel better now than you would’ve had you just pushed the feelings aside.

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    1. Barb Edler Avatar

      Not really but I may feel better after the meeting

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  2. cmargocs Avatar
    cmargocs

    Your post resonates with me, as so much that happens in this last third of life seems to be endings; the beginnings get harder to come by. Your poem, while melancholy, is full of love and tenderness.

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  3. Glenda Funk Avatar

    Barb,

    I know this last board meeting is bittersweet. The years go by so fast. I think about those wishing time away days and wish I’d appreciated them more. Like you, I worry. Lots to worry about these days. Happy birthday to Mark. I do love a good comfort food meal such as the one you described, but I don’t like the cleanup after making it. Your money is haunting and beautiful.

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  4. lvahey Avatar
    lvahey

    Thank you for inviting us into the very real set of small moments that make up our days – special meals, dull tasks, reflecting thinking, and poetry writing, too. I am hoping the changes lead to new windows opening!

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  5. kimhaynesjohnson Avatar

    Barb, change is all too often bittersweet. The completion of something is a finality of sorts that can be so hard to release. Even more challenging when we are turning over the reins and hope that the next driver will keep the horse and buggy on the road to productive and positive things. I like your outlook – – opening the next doors. That’s the spirit I need, and you inspire me to look at things that way.

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  6. jodimahoney Avatar

    This was my favorite line, “Worrying is a genetic gene I cannot shed.” – your piece leans into the emotions of this moment. Beautiful and vulnerable.

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  7. Fran Haley Avatar

    A gorgeous, gorgeous nonet, Barb. The whole blue mood, the tenderness, the pull of the soul…I felt every bit of it. As others have mentioned, I really appreciate the the truth of this line in your post: “Worrying is a genetic gene I cannot shed.” An important recognition – knowing a thing for what it is may make the coping a little better. And I am with you on that mouth-watering meal – sure, I’d fix it for my husband, too, but how MUCH better to have someone else do it!! Happy big birthday to him!

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  8. Denise Krebs Avatar
    Denise Krebs

    Peace to you, Barb. I hope your final meeting was sweet, and the goodbyes I know are final. I enjoyed your dear goodbye poem. Happy big birthday to you dear hubby!

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