By Barb Edler

“I used to think that the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It’s not. The worst thing in life is ending up with people who make you feel all alone.” Robin Williams.

Moon over the Mississippi River. Photo by Barb Edler.

I’ve been known to be a bit sensitive. It’s most likely the truth although I know how to don a thick skin. Be that as it may, I must say some comments are just plain rude. Once one of my neighbors said, “At least you have one good looking son.” What? Who says sh#! like that! Well, I guess my neighbor does who was completely off base since my sons all have fine features, and that is exactly how I responded to her offending remark.

Honestly, I often find myself feeling appalled by comments that seem to be quite insensitive and totally off the mark. My internal voice begins to shout, “Really? Did they even listen or read what I said?” I find those moments the most difficult to process and when I feel really alone.

Although I may be hurt, I know how to take one on the chin. I also know when someone is showing their true colors. Once in a while, I have to remind myself that sometimes a person just has to pivot which can be difficult for me because I tend to be fairly straightforward with my approach to life.

Fortunately, I find value in writing about life experiences and observations. Attempting to encapsulate an emotion can help me overcome my downcast moods and feelings of betrayal so today I’ll close this sad little post with a sijo that expresses what I’d like to accomplish during my darkest days.

Paradise Flight

carry me, yellow finch wings,
into gold skies, along mountain
icy streams, butterfly fields,
scorching deserts—then drop me quick
into a hellish fiery pit
to rise anew like Phoenix